When Life Crashes

19 Feb

I have said a number of times in this blog that I am a happy person; I really am. Yet, a few times in my life there has been despair. I think it was hard when I was young and felt like everything was going wrong and nothing would ever be good again. I remember one night in my twenties when I just wanted to die; close my eyes and never open them again. In recent years life has also changed in ways I would have never expected; a sense of loss and pain and a life that will never be the same. But, I like Process Theology because it says that life is not suppose to go on the same. There are changes, some we like and some we don’t, but all can be opportunities for growth.

My spiritual journey has helped me to put one foot in front of the other, even when it seems impossible. And, what I know is, that each time life seemed to come to an end, there was another, different life I had the option to embrace. In recent years [maybe since I turned 50], my motto has been, suck it up, figure it out, get it done. I am glad the young girl I was in my twenties didn’t give up. I am this old lady hasn’t given up either.

And that is my introduction to the psalm of the day. Psalm 130 begins with the well known line, “Out of the depths I cry unto you, O Lord”. Eugene Peterson paraphrases it this way:

130 1-2 Help, God—the bottom has fallen out of my life!
Master, hear my cry for help!
Listen hard! Open your ears!
Listen to my cries for mercy.

If you, God, kept records on wrongdoings,
who would stand a chance?
As it turns out, forgiveness is your habit,
and that’s why you’re worshiped.

It is God’s way not to count the wrongdoing of our lives and offer forgiveness. Should we do any less for one another? If there is forgiveness, there is hope. If we can accept God’s forgiveness and forgive others than the brokenness of the past will not distort our present or our future. If we can look at our lives through God’s eyes and see the healing and new possibilities God’s love brings, then we can continue to bring light and blessings to others.

I pray to God—my life a prayer—
and wait for what he’ll say and do.
My life’s on the line before God, my Lord,
waiting and watching till morning,
waiting and watching till morning.

O Israel, wait and watch for God—
with God’s arrival comes love,
with God’s arrival comes generous redemption.
No doubt about it—he’ll redeem Israel,
buy back Israel from captivity to sin.

It is the power of God to bring new hope out of the despair of a life that has crashed. If we truly believe that God has created our world, that God has raised Jesus from the dead, that God is with us in every moment of our lives, then surely God can raise our lives from the ashes and create a new life with different joys than we expected.

But remember, it is up to us to suck it up, figure it out, and get it done!


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